So you want an eating disorder, eh? Fair enough. I don't blame you. They're glorified in today's society, so I'm not going to call you all sorts of names for wanting to hate yourself, have your teeth fall out, have bald patches, then have unwanted body hair because it's your body's way of coping. Oh yeah by the way, those things come with an eating disorder and so much more. But you probably didn't know that, hey? Because society just shows you the weight loss. . .they don't show you the. . .

• Constant feeling of lethargy 
• The embarrassment of fainting in public
• Weak nails
• Tooth decay
• Heart palpitations 
• Brain damage
• Muscle wasting
• Acid reflux 
• Gastro paresis 
• Constipation 
• Enema 
• Your hair falling out
• Not knowing when your period is coming, if at all
• Unwanted body hair all over
• Constipation for weeks
• Damaged teeth and gums
• Sores in the throat and mouth
• Scarring on the back of the hand/fingers used to induce purging
• The embarrassment of swollen "chipmunk cheeks"
• Having heartburn all the time 

• the constant self hatred / low self esteem
• wishing you were dead 
• the constant anxiety of being hungry but knowing you can't eat or "you'll gain weight" 
• feeling utterly and completely hopeless / helpless and anxiously seeking control 
• developing psychosis and hearing voices attack you constantly calling you "fat bitch" "whore" and "fucking disgusting"
• wanting to cut, burn and bruise your skin because you hate yourself so much and think you deserve the pain 
• the stress of being force fed through a tube even though you "KNOW you're fat and are going to gain weight"
• being hospitalised for months by force because your body is shutting down
• having the urge to throw up even though your throat is burning